Although right now I'm feeling more inclined to celebrate the weekend, Kristin has a point. I'm sure all of this sadness, worry, and stress has lessons hidden in it somewhere. In fact, I've already seen some good come out of it. My friends, family, and even just acquaintances have really rallied around me when I've asked for help. It's a cliché, but it reminds me that who I am is so, so much more than what job I do or what school I attend. Also, struggling in a program I was 100% sure I would love is making me realize that I just cannot control everything. Oh, and I am definitely appreciating little things more now. When days are particularly stressful, I just look forward to something like a visit to La Porte, an Amtrak ride (clearly), Giordano's Pizza (double clearly), a trip in Amy's new car, Kevin arriving for a few days, or watching Glee with Kelly. Other stuff has changed for me too over the past few months - but what I haven't written is probably too personal for this blog.
On a related note, but separate from my grad school drama, recently at school I've tried to - how should I say this? - be more of a grown-up. This means more handshakes and eye contact, having direct conversations with people who intimidate me a little instead of wimping out and sending email all the time, resisting the urge to wear jeans and a sweater to class like I did as an undergrad, and using free time to get started on future projects rather than wasting time.
(Says the person who is updating her blog when she should be doing some prep work for final projects.) ;)
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